Thursday, July 10, 2008

Not with a bang, but a whimper

Here we go round the prickly pear
Prickly pear prickly pear
Here we go round the prickly pear
At five o’clock in the morning.

Between the idea
And the reality
Between the motion
And the act
Falls the Shadow
For Thine is the Kingdom

Between the conception
And the creation
Between the emotion
And the response
Falls the Shadow
Life is very long

Between the desire
And the spasm
Between the potency
And the existence
Between the essence
And the descent
Falls the Shadow
For Thine is the Kingdom

For Thine is
Life is
For Thine is the

This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
This is the way the world ends
Not with a bang but a whimper.

from "The Hollow Men" by TS Eliot

There are just no words for this one.

Bio Mom has lost her visitation. After being somewhat aggressive ("It's not my fault! It's Bio Dad's fault!"), rather whiny ("I want to see Oliver more. I know I've missed a lot of visits. But this isn't fair!") and altogether insistent ("I don't want him to be adopted!") at Oliver's most recent court date 3 weeks ago, she gave 2 hours notice--again--and is now unable to see the child she carried in her body for 35 weeks. This is her third missed visit in as many weeks, guys. Sad. Oh, so sad.

Our summer is now suddenly wide open. No more twice-a-week treks to the Big City. I'm really not sure what to do with myself.


~ Angi :) said...

How have I ever missed the TS Eliot poem? It drew me in inexplicably.



[ahem] As for the freedom. A moment of silence in honor of her place and her loss.

A moment of silence toward the Lord, in thanksgiving for Oliver's stable now-home.


~ Angi :) said...

See? I was *so* impacted, I couldn't even spell! LOL

Kindred Blessings said...

Well...I'm glad for Oliver's sake and your family. How sad though. Of course, he wouldn't have been taken away in the first place if she was a fit parent. It's a good thing in a bad situation (good for you and him).