Wednesday, November 19, 2008

It's the economy, stupid!

The national numbers aren't looking very good, which means that the local numbers are even worse. My dh is currently in a holding pattern, wondering if his job will continue to exist into the new year.

I ought to be panicking. I ought to be feeling a wrench in my gut. I ought to be asking "Why us?"

Have I had those moments? In a way. I called Benny during a car ride shortly after getting the news and had a good fifteen minutes of, "Tell me this isn't h
appening when I've got two children I'm waiting to finalize on!" After a nice emotional dump, I caught a glimpse of Oliver sleeping in the rear view mirror. His head was cocked to the side, his arm resting on Manolin's car seat. The row behind him was filled with the beautiful stair steps that are my biological offspring.

How can I look upon the faces of my children and not know that God is good, all the time? How can I possibly doubt His grace and mercy when I take a moment to contemplate the blessings I never even asked for coupled alongside those for whom I have fought with all of my heart?

There's nothing wrong with His justice. His timing. His plan. No matter what it looks like in those moments of blindsided shock ... God is still God. The economy may be tanking, but God is still in the business of ruling the universe.

And I'm still in the business of having faith.


Unknown said...


He provides His children refuge from the storm.

Lori said...

What a wonderful testimony when someone asks you why you AREN'T freaking out.

Kate said...

Go to Isaiah 41, read all of the I wills...of God and rejoice. Your faith is wonderful and truly of God.


Stephanie said...

This is a fabulous testimony. I've had to learn over the last year this exact thing. I'm so thankful for the blessings, but I'm even more thankful for the reminder that God is in control during the dark times.

(I found your blog through the SL forums. It's fabulous!)

Emily said...

I just spent WAYYYY too much time reading your blog. Not that it's not TOTALLY worthy of it, but my husband may not enjoy my computer hogging. :) It was exciting to read another Pacific NW'er and her journey through Foster Care. We are almost done w/ certification....hopefully by the end of December.

Love your blog. Gayle (My real life friend) has always loved your blog...what took me so long?

Overwhelmed! said...

Beautiful testimony! These are uncertain times for all of us. Now more than ever we need to hold tight to our faith that God will provide.

Thanks for the reminder!

Liz said...

your perspective is right "on the money" so to speak. God's economy is opposite of ours. remember:
Passage Psalm 37:25:

I have been young, and now am old,
yet I have not seen the righteous forsaken
or his children begging for bread.